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Life In Early April
02:43
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2. |
Third Eye
04:00
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Trying to un-furrow your brow
Stroke your third eye with my thumbs
Trying to be in the here and now
Holding all the infinite outcomes
Trying hard to read your mind
And all the language on your face
Trying to make it all feel right
As we drift through time and space
Ring-a-round—the-rosies
A pocket full of posies
Ashes, ashes
We all fall down
I wish I had a time machine
So you could remember me
The way I was, before all this
Before the shit
I don’t know why
My hearts beating out of my chest
Can’t slow it down
No I think I’m fine
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3. |
King Sisyphus
03:28
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I feel like Sisyphus
Throwing fits
Watching this boulder roll away
I’ll try again
As I begin
It feels so heavy
How’d it get this heavy
The weight
I can feel it’s weight
It could crush me
I could let it crush me
Feels like paralysis
I’m not okay with this
Loop of my fuck ups on replay
No matter what has been
We can’t shed this skin
Just like an elephant
It’s heavy delicate
Try to separate
Me from my mental state
Dodging mind debris
I can’t let it crush me
Alright, already we’ll all float on
The end of paralysis
I was a statuette
Now I’m drunk as hell
On a piano bench
When I press the keys
It all gets reversed
The sound of loneliness
Makes me happier
(Anyway don’t be a stranger)
Alright, already we’ll all float on
Even if things get heavy
We’ll all float on
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4. |
Proper Nouns
04:03
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Goosebumps on my skin
Charcoal clouds are rolling in
Impending overflow
Crape myrtles making hot pink snow
Warm like bathtub gin
Watch my golden spiral tail spin
A break from the routine
Watch the radar on the screen
Red and gold and green
Just like the autumn leaves
Charcoal clouds, whatever I said
Looming overhead
Thought I had something more to say
But it looks like rain
Heavy rain
Can it wash away
The weight
Looming overhead
The dread
My broken brain
Heavy rain
Can it wash away
The weight
Looming overhead
Still pulling threads
In vein
Heavy rain
Can it wash away
The weight
Like the head that wears the crown
I will let you down
Trying to stay sane
Heavy rain
Like the head that wears the crown
I will let you down
Reword the Refrain
Heavy rain
Since band names were proper nouns
I will let you down
No one else to blame
Heavy rain
Time and time again
Metaphors wearing thin
Cliché just like pain
And heavy rain
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5. |
Wild Sheep
03:13
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I can’t think too hard about it
Or else I can’t breathe
Need tiny white pills
To help me fall asleep
Starring at the ceiling
My heartbeat feels all wrong
Racing like a killer
Change the tempo to the song
Counting wild sheep
This life’s a balance beam
Some poise to grow into
Just hope I don’t crack up
And you’ll love me if I do
If I do
I can’t think too hard about it
Or else I can’t move
The weight is set too high
Needles worn down the grooves
Try to reassure my self
More like string myself along
Self awareness, rapid cycle
It goes on and on and on
Finally asleep
When I’m sleeping I don’t dream
Or I don’t remember that I do
Just hope that I wake up
In the morning next to you
Next to you
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6. |
Domesticated Wolves
03:10
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Clawing our way back to consciousness
You’re like Lazarus in a nightdress
I’m drowning in sea of sheets
Find your face, kiss your cheeks
Sunrise sky
You and I
Wilder, Woods
And Domesticated wolves
Wide awake
New bouquet
Everyone fed and medicated
Start the day
Lists with checks that we call progress
Organized chaos a gorgeous mess
The same record on repeat
Little visionary in the backseat
Sunset sky
You and I
Wilder, Woods
And Domesticated wolves
Tired eyes
Fireflies
Watch until their light has faded
To end the day
Nighttime sky
You and I
Books are read
The boys in bed
Nighttime sky
The stars are bright
In this moment
Everything’s alright
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8. |
Overgrown, Pt. 3
04:03
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Overjoyed, overflow
Overreact, overthrow
Overwhelming, overblown
Overthinking, overgrown
Tell me all about your fever dreams
While your sweating through the sheets
Is someone pressing on your jeans
Or are you running from police?
Understanding left unsaid
Underachiever, underfed
Under god, in my head
Under blankets
Checking for monsters under beds
Tell me all about your fever dreams
Are you replaying your defeats
Watching from the nosebleed seats
Or are you finding inner peace?
Tell me all about your fever dreams
While your sweating through the sheets
Is someone pressing on your jeans
Or are you running from police?
We’re reaping what we’ve sown
Now the garden is overgrown
Just trying to make it through the night
Up before first light
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9. |
Shade Tree Benevolent
03:43
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10. |
Ugly / Elegant
04:35
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Circa 2008
I feel Nostalgic for that sound
Time and time again
I will only let you down
Back in our hometown
Gone for a decade back a couple years
With the streets I remember
And the same old fears
This town is…
It’s Ugly elegant
Woke up the world’s all rearranged
A happy accident
Found that the meaning hadn’t changed
Circa 2021 bought ourselves
A few acres of sacred land
Try to be holy through osmosis
Or just raise our boys with less blood on their hands
Now You’ve lived through all my references
The songs increasingly hard to hear
Exactly How many times do you need to rehash the same old fears
Is it a happy accident?
If you find the meaning hasn’t changed
Well that’s irrelevant
If you can’t keep the subject in the frame
I don’t know who this is even for
Digging up the past, pairing it with the new
For the sake of continuity ?
Or just something that feels true?
And…
Ugly elegant
Look back at what we overcame
This feeling’s infinite
The weight, the joy, the counterclaims
Heavy delicate
Heavy rain, and an open door
Some kind of sacrament
Baptized in torrential downpour
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I don’t know where this is gonna go
I just keep digging holes
Until I know
Rewriting the same song
Over again
Recycle the same chords
Rearranging what’s been
Is there something I missed
The first time around?
Or the second or third ?
Where are you now?
I’m reworking the same shit
Rewording the same doubts
Holding tight to this pain
Like it’s a rope to pull me out
I don’t know where this is gonna go
I just keep digging holes
Until I know
Wrote a song to our broken house
You thought is was for you
Reread every word
Don’t know what got misconstrued
If you want your own verse
Travel back in time
Leave me a few memories
Or bedtime nursery rhyme
When I met my own son
Held his hand in my hand
All the pretext every excuse
I no longer understand
I don’t know where this is gonna go
I just keep digging holes
Until I know
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Holey sediment
Before all of this
I can’t think too hard about it
That’s irrelevant
A happy accident
Some kind of sacrament
It’s Ugly elegant
It’s Heavy Delicate
Just trying to make it
Just like an elephant
Sun rise sun set
This feeling’s infinite
It meant something didn’t it?
Didn’t it?
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