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Entropy
02:39
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Embrace the chaos
Beautiful entropy
Tiny hands & crayons
Discordant masterpiece
There’s gonna be another one
A daughter or a son
Build ourselves another house
Maybe find a home
All the futures buried in the past
With our disposable income
Mid September is coming fast
Learned to love what we’ve become
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You’ll always be my first born son
But not my last
Praying that my heart is big enough
I have to confess
That I am terrified
Of all this change
I am terrified
Things won’t ever feel the same
We’ll no longer be
Just a family of three
You, your mom & me
But you will always be
You’ll always be my first born son
I’ll try my best
I know sometimes I’ll fuck it up
I’m still a work in progress
I’ll be by your side
Through the strange
I’ll be by your side
As we turn each new page
There are things we can’t foresee
I’ll try to give you all, all of me
I hope that you stay free
And Wilder than I could be
You’ll always be my first born son
Time goes fast
Get to watch you grow up
Words cannot express
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3. |
Overgrown Pt. 2
03:16
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Got so many houses but not a home
With my hair overgrown
Said anything can be made right
If we try, and we’re trying
While we’re bringing in new life
It takes time, out of sight
On my mind, On my mind
Day and night, Out of sight
On my mind, On my mind
Are we water tight?
On my mind, On my mind
Fight or flight, all the time
On my mind, On my mind
The building site, the river side
On my mind, On my mind
Are we raising our sons right
On my mind, On my mind
Bedsides and nightlights
On my mind, On my mind
All the words, I should rewrite
On my mind, On my mind
Satellites, the speed of light
On my mind, On my mind
Am I going, out of my mind
Out of my mind
(Now our house is not a home
The garden is overgrown
Just trying to make it all feel right
As we’re bringing in new life)
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4. |
Stars On The Ceiling
03:51
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How much do I remember
From my first 5 years?
The worm brick house & a heart attack
Big bad wolf fears
New kids on the block on my mother’s wall
Stock car race with her new boyfriend
King Kong baby in the morning sun
Cozy in my grandparents bed
Moving into that old RV
Felt like camping all the time
Action figures & epic scenes
I made a whole world in my mind
When suddenly you realize
Your best friend is an amnesiac
And you can’t tell
What memories we’re keeping
Which ones fade to black
How much will you remember
From your first 5 years?
The Cowal house, playing out back
Uncle Aaron smelled like weed & beer
Swimming pools & cannonballs
Riding bikes to the dead end
Treehouses were never quite done
Stars on the ceiling from your bed
Hope you remember being carefree
The cozy feeling at Christmas time
Running barefoot in the grass so green
Water hose fights in the sunshine
When suddenly you realize
Your best friend is an amnesiac
And you can’t tell
What memories we’re keeping
Which ones fade to black
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5. |
This Joy
02:33
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This joy is unsustainable
This joy is unsustainable
This joy is unsustainable
Let’s just hope we can fill the in between’s
& bathe in the afterglow
Past & present interweave
This joy is unsustainable
At best watch it replayed on a screen
Like the sum of all we loved
Is laid down at the feet of the Machine
This joy is unsustainable
This joy is unsustainable
This joy is unsustainable
This joy is unsustainable
This joy
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When the seasons begin to rhyme
Like the years are a song
Details are still fuzzy
The feelings been here all along
When we said we’d do it over
What did we mean?
I think I’ve see this one before
Did we loop the time machine?
Out of the neighborhoods
Like a big figure 8
Whatever the timeline
We’re probably running late
If I wouldn’t have crashed girl's night
On the floor with our eyes shut tight
Your lipstick smeared on mine
Would I have ever changed your mind?
If you never had your slip and fall
One misstep & it all went wrong
Titanium for shattered bone
Would we have ever come back home?
If my parents had forethought
Teenagers trying not to get caught
Something like love in a drainage ditch
Would I even exist?
I lost the words
But you know how the story goes
Wandering this multiverse
With a sky full of ghost
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7. |
Mosquitoes
04:16
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Hospitals & mosquitoes & vampires
They all want your blood
Maybe spare a few drops
But those drops are not ever enough
Scientists & wait lists & your mother
All want your insides
They see a list of spare parts
I see a reason to hide
My brain keeps trying to kill me
Try to stay out of my head
Maybe I’m just scared of the dark
So I let the TV tuck me in
Magicians & Christians & Billionaires
Are all trying to escape
Got spaceships rattle our windows
& locks on our gates
Evangelists & jihadist & salesmen
Are all offering to save
They got fire insurance
& 15% off your grave
Contractors & slackers & the credit cards
All want to get paid
Now it’s raining inside
We’ve got no place to stay
The universe is out to get me
Tried to manifest the opposite
But balance is as balance does
You still got to pay for it
Your bride & your baby & your son
Need you to be okay
So take a deep breath
& pray your not going insane
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8. |
Helter Shelter
01:47
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Goodbye
Farewell
I really wish I could wish you well
I don’t love you
It’s your fault
In truth I don’t feel anything at all
I think you’re sick
Down in your bones
Spent 500 days collecting sticks and stones
Maybe one day
We’ll look back
And remember a few good times we had
You gave us refuge
You kept us warm
Sometimes the shelter’s worse than the storm
You made us sick
And everything we own
The 500 days we called you our home
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9. |
Woods
05:02
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I promise you I’ll try
To show you all the reasons why
Help you try to find the good
I hope you feel at home in the Woods
I’ll probably over simplify
You’ll need to verify
At times you’ll feel Misunderstood
I hope you feel at home in the Woods
I’ll be here to clarify
And I’ll sing you Lullabies
Just hold onto your childhood
I hope you feel at home in the Woods
Take time to listen to the forest
And join in their chorus
Seek out the council of trees
Your mother, your brother and me
Feel the breeze blow across your face
Don’t be afraid of the mistakes
If you fall down and scrape your skin
Try to get up and try again
I hope that you stay free
Don’t take shit from nobody
People will tell you that you Should
I hope you feel at home in the Woods
Your not defined by your family tree
Can’t wait to see who you’ll be
Everything I wish I Could
I hope you feel at home in the Woods
At times we will disagree
So Here’s my first apology
Sometimes I’ll fail at fatherhood
I hope you feel at home in the Woods
Take time to listen to the forest
And join in their chorus
Seek out the council of trees
Your mother, your brother and me
Be brave enough to feel what you feel
Almost anything can heal
Know that it’s okay to cry
But remember to try, try again
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10. |
Graffiti
04:47
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Driving back home on Christmas night
The boys are in the backseat
Everyone’s tired
Played our endless numbered days
Tried to stay awake
Down dark winding country roads
Driving back home watching Christmas lights
Speckling the hillsides
Like tiny fires
Sang “there are things that drift away”
“Love you to outer space”
And Down dark winding country roads
Down those dark winding country roads
Driving out west for a day or two
For campfire stories
A sleeping bag next to you
Passed the billboard for a gun show
Flags out on the lawns
Graffiti on the cliff face
Like an affront to god
Out passed the speed traps & streetlights
Where the hills turn into stone
Down dark winding country roads
(Out of the neighborhoods
Like a big figure 8)
(Down dark winding country roads)
(Out of my mind)
(This joy is unsustainable)
Wish I could look up at the stars
And not think about the end
Shinning brighter than the sun
They all slowly fade to black
Even if death is not the end
At least profoundly rearranged
I want to stay here in this state
In my body with my body next to you
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11. |
Every Song I Ever Wrote
04:28
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I don’t need Marie Kondo, to know
I've got a problem with letting go
Boxes and piles
Reminders of another time
A different life
Some other versions of me
Each one still in love with you
Strange how we always knew
But I'm no good at writing love songs
Fear they’d need to be ten years long
Everything that time withers away
You always seem to stay
Photo strips and ticket stubs
Wedding vows and business card
Drawings from a motel 6
Maps from every family trip
The bouquet you forgot to throw
Lyrics to every song I ever wrote
Blue prints and contractor bids
Notes you wrote me back when we were kids
Sonograms and souvenirs
Pocket change and all our fears
Photographs before we meet
Lists we haven’t got to yet
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12. |
Graffiti (Reprise)
01:41
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Wish I could look up at the stars
And not think about the end
Shinning brighter than the sun
They all slowly fade to black
Even if death is not the end
At least profoundly rearranged
I want to stay here in this state
In my body with my body next to you
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