Honey pt. 2

Sticks and stones may break your bones
Words can break your heart
The truths a had pill to swallow
But I don’t know where else to start

I tried writing you a song
that said exactly how I felt
It was far too brutal to be shared
So I kept it for myself

The subjects hard to bring up
Every conversation’s weird
So let me articulate my thoughts
I want to finally make them clear

You were a child with a child
And I know that you were scared
I don’t fault you for your timing
Or for you not being there

I think the problem really lies
In insecurity and guilt
I don’t want to be hurtful
I just want to say it like it is

You’re not the one who raised me
I know you wish that wasn’t true
But attachment figures
aren’t just something wishes can undo

It hurts that I can’t just call her up
Or have her stop by to see the kids
Without her worrying about your feelings
Knowing you would take offense

I know she’s trying to protect you
Putting your needs above her own
And It’s hard to argue with
A mother’s sacrificial love

I want you to know tears me up inside
That her only thanks was guilt
For being a mother when you couldn’t
Building a home you couldn’t build

I know
You wish you could rewrite history
you’re worried that you weren’t enough
You wish could straighten this all out
You’re worried I don’t know your love

I’ve never doubted that you love me
And I know you’ve had it rough
But can you put your needs aside for once
And can you love me enough
…To be my second call